I was at the bottom of the barell, literally
I was lying, cheating, "imagining" shit you name it, I was doing it.
I don't really know who that person was, and I'm so glad to say that I'm no longer that girl,
yes, her name was Cady Otwell,
and yes, my name is still Cady Otwell,
but I am NO longer the person that I was during that time..
I hurt the people closest to me,
just so I could be accepted by everyone
and guess what, it worked, for a while
but then one day, everything backfired on me
and thank GOD that it did...
sure it seemed like the end of the world then,
but now,
I'm such a better, stronger, healthier, brighter person
but without that happening to me...
I wouldn't be me NOW, the nicer person that I am lol
That was me then, sure, I look happy but really...look at me now...
And tell me that you can't see someone happier, brighter, and all around more glowing...well if you can't see it, I know that I SURE can, and really I guess that's all that really matters...
But you know,
I'm SO much better.
I'm not lying,
I'm not backstabbing,
I'm just living my life,
for me now, not whoever that was before
that monster that I had let myself become.
Like for real, it was horrible...
Besides the point...
Life is good now,
I'm really truly the happiest that I have ever been in my life :D
Friends are great, I'm getting a long with people I never have before.
And best of all, the one person that I hurt the most with my crazy shit that I pulled,
She's coming back around and thank God for that, I mean I know that we will never be as close as we were, but I mean, I wasn't myself then and I really hope that she knows that, but you know, I'm happy just being able to talk to her I mean gah I've missed her so much. :D
Anyway, Show Choir Camp starts tomorrow,
and I'm really quite excited about it!
My final year of high school is going to be amazing
you know how I know that?
Because I'm amazing now, and I will never let myself get to where I was before..
Oh, and I'm starting my new job tomorrow as well
at Jeneane's which I'm really excited about!
Well I doubt that anybody will read this,
but if you do,
Thanks I really appreciate it...
Love <3
1 comment:
I am proud of you. Keep up the good work. And you look great.
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